When People Stare

Mark J. Janssen
4 min readDec 7, 2023

I am a horrible person. Rude, uncouth, bizarre and out of control, so I’ve been told. Apparently, I’ve been this way since childhood. If you are looking for an upside to this, it seems I am less so nowadays. It may have something to do with retirement and not being out in public unless absolutely necessary. Unlike when I worked and had to be around other people almost every day of my life. Before that I was in school and it was the same story.

Everywhere I went there were crowds of people. No matter what I might try to do to hide, to be with my friendly angels away from the spiritual madness of the world. To the extent that my favorite place when I was in college was not hanging out with a group or sitting in a football stadium like many other men my age. I thrived in the basement of the university library. There were very few other people in those dank, dark rooms. Those who were present wanted silence. We all had our own research to do and papers to write.

It was a relief from the life outside those walls.

When I was not in the process of avoiding other people at earlier times in my life, I was told that I stare at them. The same is true now. Which I find interesting. I have always looked at people’s auras or halos, if you prefer. I look at their auras and wonder why they are the colors they are. What is it someone does to make it a particular mix of colors? Why do some people have auras so dark they appear black? What are the terrible things that person has done to deserve such a dismal aura?

Many people have auras full of opposing colors. It’s as if they couldn’t make up their minds whether to listen to their guardian angels, their better angels, or to run off half-cocked in search of some mad desires. When people think I am staring at them, I am actually trying to piece together the crazy patchwork quilt of their souls. What is behind the madness of their souls? Also, when I appear to be staring at a person, I am speaking with their guardian angel. We’re discussing how the person got to where they are. What they could do to correct the mess their soul is in.

More times than I can remember the people with such auras, such souls, have seen me looking and become upset. Some have flown off the handle in extravagant rages. Others have walked away in a huff telling the people around them how crazy I am. What a terrible person I am. More than once I’ve been told that they will teach me! Teach me what? How to ignore God’s messengers?

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Mark J. Janssen

Mark Janssen is a spiritual warrior, mystic and author. His writes a weekly blog. His memoir “Reach for the Stars” is available online and in bookstores.